Something is making me hold back
From losing you.
I am not sure anymore
Whether love can be true.


I have been thru the motions
Many times before
I do not even know
What to look for anymore.


Along with the love
Must come the heartache,
And I do not think
That is something I could take.


So what are you to do
Love me
And wait for a love
That may not be.


And what am I do do
Hold you back
from finding a love
that is worthy of you.


Maybe you will come to realize
That love is not what you feel
Maybe you will start to realize
That what feels like love is not real.


Or


Maybe I will start loving you
And it will be to late.
Things like that are expected
Life's cruelties are sometimes fate.


Whatever time we do spend
Whether it be until tomorrow or forever
I will cherish the time
That we spend together!


NL'99

What is it about you, That has me this way??

When I hear your voice
My heart stirs


What is it about you
That has me this way??


It is like when we first met
nervous and shaking hands


What is it about you
That has me this way??


You with the light in your eyes
Makes me feel like staring into them
With the beautiful silver smile
Makes me feel like kissing you
With the tall, lean & athletic body
Makes me feel like wrapping my arms around you
With the strong hold
Makes me want to be held
With your smooth talk
Makes me want to listen
With your mellow ways
Makes me want to relax with you.


What is it about you
That has me this way??


NL'99

Life goes on

All I want today
Is for the pain
to go away
You brought such sorrow
To my heart
How will I get through tomorrow?


I thought you would
be a friend
someone that I could
share my heart with
to the END.


I liked our talks
Our very long walks
All the time we shared
I thought for me
You would be there.


All good things
come to an END
Some day, we can maybe
Become friends.


But life goes on...


NL '99

Untitled

If we can not be lovers
I do not want to be friends
This is not how I
Imagine we'd end


I can not handle being so near
And not being able to hold you
I can not keep my emotions to myself
I love you
And I want you to know it.


If we can not be lovers
Then we can not be friends
'cause this not how I
Imagined we'd end.


NL '99

In my sleep

I gave my heart
for your to keep
And you returned it to me
In my sleep


Unaware of how you felt


You were my rainbow
After the storm
Now when I think of you
I feel pain


Pain
Because
I gave my heart
for you to keep
And you returned it to me
In my sleep.


NL- 1999

Untitled

I Miss You
Love You
Want You
and Need you
to Want Me
Need Me
Kiss Me
Squeeze Me
Tease Me
then Please Me
Caress Me
Undress Me
Sex Me
just
Love Me.

NL (date unknown)

Never Felt.....

I've never felt

so much in love

you are all

I ever think of

I've never felt

a love so true

We were meant to be

me and you.

I've never felt

a love so free

You give to me

unselfishly.

I've never felt

a love so divine

Flows so smoothly

its one of a kind.

I've never felt

love from a friend

I hope our love

NEVER comes to an End.

NL (date unknown)

To Love Again

To Love Again
Seems like a Dream
That I am Not Able
To Attain

Just a Distant Memory
of an Emotion
I cannot seem
to Regain

To Love Again
What I Would Do
To Love Again.

NL (date unknown)

Affection

Why am I the object of your love?

Why is it me that you think of?

Was it something I did or maybe I said?

To be the one that clutters your head?

I do not understand how

or why this could be

I am just flattered that the object

of your affection

Is me!

NL 11/99